One Day

" What you do with your life is just one half of the equation. The other half , the more important half really is , who you're with when you're doing it "
- Post Grad.

Life.
Its not about what we have , its about the people we have.
Its not about how much money we make , but how many lives we've touched.
Its not where we're at , its who we're with.
Its not looking for happiness , its having people to go through sadness with us.
Its not how many people we know , its how many hands we've hold.
Its not what we do , but who we do it for.
Its not how we fall , its how we get up.
Its not how we win , its how we fight.
Its not about having success , its the people who's brought us success
Its not a destination , its a journey.

Often times we chase for the wrong things , look at the wrong place.
So , here's a small reminder of what we're suppose to look for.


I'm hoping you might take just a moment to realise
That everything you're looking for is hidden in plain sight
I know you better than I know myself
How I feel is the only thing I can never tell ya

Maybe oneday you will know
How hard is it for me to show my heart
And all the love running through my soul
Maybe one day you will know.

CHEERS.

Dreamers.

Someone else's thoughts could take root in the loam of your mind ; having someone accept you was as vital as oxygen
- The Pact

I have so much - too much in fact , going on in my life and all I have been doing is waiting for the right time to say it.
But I realise that there isn't going to be a right time to vent out all the anger , frustration - some I didn't know existed until today.

Do you ever wonder what is it going to be today ?
Do ever wonder what is the next thing you're going to read here - not that I expect you to wonder.
I always wonder what's next , for me as the blogger of this blog.
What could I possibly give. I like the mysterious element that sometimes I want you to think about what is going through my head or who I really am. But at the same time , I think if you read long enough, you can possibly tell that I almost gave myself away.
At the same time of keeping it mysterious , or poetic , I'll like to give people something to think about.
After all , you and I as people always , always have opinions.


I always talked about keeping it unknown. - like for me to know , for you to find out.
Today , what I'm about to put on the table is what you get. This is me and honesty.

Last night , my day got from bad to worst to much better.
I snuck into my bed at about 1am and said my prayers really quick (nothing I'm proud of) and doze off , almost instantly.
And I had one of the most intense dream. I wouldn't call it a nightmare nor a sweet dream.
In a dream , not so often that we end up some where we actually know.
So , it was that time of the year , cross country - or road run. whatever you call it.
I was running on a route I have never ran or come across in my life. But I know I was running , my legs felt a little heavy but I managed to get myself to the front. From a crowd to an empty lane.It was a good sign , I think. I knew I was near the finish line but the thing is.. I couldn't find it.I followed the signs and direction , I kept ending up at the same wrong place.
The same wrong place was in a building - I don't know how I ended up there but I suppose it was the school , which I've never been to.
I was surrounded by white walls with doors now. But I kept ending up at the same place , no , not the finish line. I obviously started to panic , not only the fact that I wasn't first anymore, but the fact that I was lost. Anyway , to make this short , I ended up in the school's parking lot. It was evening already, purple-ish sky. Everyone was in the canteen , somehow. And I never made it pass the finish line nor did I find the finish line. Never found my way back.

Okay , maybe this sounds nothing like it. Or feels anything like it.
Another thing about dreams is that we often do not remember them.
We only remember a few. And the few should have or would have hit us , in a way , that we somehow remember them. And this dream I had was one of it. Still so fresh in my mind.
That girl , the one following the right directions , the one with expectations the one who got lost. That girl was me. That girl is me.

You could leave or you could bare with me..
I have so much to say.



I always wondered why I'm so scared to live it up , live my life.
Be who I always wanted. Now I understand why.
I was scared because I was afraid I couldn't. I was afraid if I tried and I kept failing , I wouldn't be able to live up to my expectations. What more my parents. The picture I paint for them of the person I am going to be or I want to be. The person who's suppose to walk in that great pair of shoes. My parents have gave in and gave up so much for me , and they do not do that for nothing. They expect me to get somewhere with what they have given me. The thing is , I always asked for whatever it is until they gave in , but I was never sure if I could get anywhere. I don't want to e treated like a joke or not be taken seriously. I want them to believe that I'm not a joke and I can be somebody. But , I don't know how or whether I can do that.


What do people usually call this ?
The phase. Or ' teenage angst '.
Adults see this as the phase teenagers go through. Everything that happens is exaggerated.
Because they forgot how hard is it going through teenage years. Living up to expectations or arguing about why their opinions doesn't make sense and they can somehow be possibly totally wrong or the fact that they think what's best for us is not best for us.
Maybe , maybe they've forgotten what it feels like.
If they think this is nothing, that's when they're wrong again.



There was a time and place not far from here and now
Maybe a brighter day, maybe they had made it somehow
Living for there and then under a psychadelic spell
No one was listening
Still they had so much to tell

Whatever happened to the dreamers
They always looked beyond the sky
Saw a world they could believe in
But only when they close their eyes

Nothing's ever been this way before
A dream is just a dream and nothing more

CHEERS.

When You Were Young.

" Time , unfortunately , doesn't make it easy to stay on course.
The path is straight as ever , but now it is strewn with the rocks and gravel that accumulate over a lifetime. "
- The Notebook

I remember days , like they were yesterday.
Some ordinary , some not.
I remember your words, like they were spoken yesterday.
Some significant , some not.
With the fear of the future and whatever it brings , I'll remember today and these days like it was yesterday.
Because , I'll remember you.


I want to say that I'm somebody going somewhere , but I'm not.
I'm just not.




When you were young ,
You were not what you were ,
When you were young.

CHEERS.

Car test :)

Passed my car test. Wheeeee ;)

17 - 19 June 2010

went KL on 17th 18th and 19th with my dear. teeheeee. we discuss will be going genting , but there are full booking room , because of holiday. ARGHHH ! wth , need take bus and back to kl again. went back to kl in the 6p.m something and back he sister home overnight. well , back home take bath and go nearby he house jj used our dinner , yumcha with his friend. I'm very bored larh , mann. can u faster back home ? :/

reached home and the house are become crazy , because of FIFA football.

in the 2nd day , after we used breakfast and go midvelly for shopping , wheeee ;) it was hard to find car parking , full full full. MANGO sales ehh , back hometown only go see the sales. because there have many people larh , go ate sushi. very paiseh when we wanna bil , a long story. sorry , my dear. :( walk a while and back home rest.

oh my god , he sis are coming back. chatting with his sis and discussing they cousin wedding present. he ask me go the wedding party. ;) it was so surprise when I heard he asked me to go too. after chatting we take bath and discussed go midvelly again and watch the toy story 3D. suddenly , he sis asked us go dinner with his grandma. har ? dinner with grandma , I think. well , I couldn't believe that's I can done that. after having the dinner and back he relative home. but , this dinner just like already sure our relationship was that stable. i'm happy , yet his family was kind , funny and friendly.

3nd day , having breakfast and going to sunway walk a while and need to back home keep our thing back hometown.

don't worry , dear. I will attend the wedding dinner. mwah :*

I LOVE YOU & I MISS YOU , MY DEAR. ♥

Colourful post ? hahaha.

Is this blog skin nice ? Comment please.

Maybe I'm going to change a new soon. Don't know.

Currectly addicted to Alex Fong and Genie's songs. NICE ~~

Repeated and repeated their songs. Crazy. But who cares ? NO ONE. lol.

I'm looking forward to tomorrow - 8th June ! Yeahhhhhh.

My Birthday (((:

Surprise from family ? I don't think they will give any surprise to me. =[

Surprise from friends ? Maybe. I know they're planning. Thank you ! =]

Happy Sweet 18th to Myself.

Happy Birthday To JieJuin.

And here , I wanna to wish Rachel Happy Birthday too.

She same birthday day with me. Whee ~

I WOULD NEVER FORGET THE OLD DAYS WE BEEN.

She's Jaclyn Looi , my best friend. ♥

She has to go to her college's life soon.

I would never forget the old days we been.

I would never forget the time we all together.

The step attest how longer of our friendship.

Miss you & take good care yourself at KL.

We will visit you one day. :P