Unspoken.

Its sound , its simple.

Its words , touching.

The feeling , moving.

If it touches , it touches you.

If it fixes , it fixes you.

If you feel , feel the pain.

If you learn , learn the meaning.

If its a note , its for you.

Coldplay - See You Soon.

So you lost your trust
And you never should have , you never should have
Don't break your back if you ever see this
But don't answer that
In a bullet proof vest
With the windows all closed , I'll be doing my best
And I'll see you soon
In a telescope lens
And all you want is friends
I'll see you soon


So they came for you
They come snapping at your heels
They come snapping at your heels
But don't break your back if you ever heard this
But don't answer that
Cause in a bullet prove vest
With the windows all closed ,I'll be doing my best
And I'll see you soon
In a telescope lens
When all you want is friends
I'll see you soon.


No , you lost your trust
No , you lost your trust
No , don't lose your trust
No , don't lose your trust


I'll see you soon.

While waiting for my friend to brush her teeth...


Hello !


I can't believe that this week is almost over.
You have no idea how long I have waited for this week and now its over.
Devastating.
Is it normal for a person to feel like it is already the end of the year but it's only just the beginning.
It sucks.

Okay. I have really nothing to say right now.
Unless you would like to talk about the weather.
The weather is crazy ! Hazardous.

Gotta run.
My friend is back !


CHEERS.

I Tried To Tell You.

" Whatever you do in life will be insignificant , but it is important that you do it because nobody else will. "
- Remember Me

I tell you ,
When you walk , you won't walk alone.
When you fall , you won't fall alone.
When you cry , you won't cry alone.
When you're alone , you're not alone.
I tell you ... everything I know.

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I think I've spent enough time trying to say something here.
Its the power of coffee , confusion , and a wrong decision.

Cheers.

Stuck In A Moment You Can't Get Out

" Our fingerprints don't fade from the lives we touch "
- Remember Me.

As yours is imprinted on me ,
I hope I left a mark on you ,
One you will cherish and one you will remember ,
One you will keep forever.
And I know one day you will have to go ,
I can only wish it will guide you home.

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I have failed to accomplish everything I planned to accomplished this weekend.
I guess its just like any other weekend.


Matches are played because of the many possibilities is brings.
Nothing is ever too sure and anything is possible.
Viva Espana !




Okay. I don't speak much about my life.
Maybe because I have nothing much to tell , or maybe because I find it hard to tell.
Whatever it is , I just hope to have a story in the end.
Everybody has a story to tell.





I never thought you were a fool ,
But darling look at you ,
You gotta stand up straight and carry your own weight
These tears are going nowhere , baby


You gotta get yourself together
You've got yourself stuck in a moment
And now you can't get out of it
Don't say later will be better
Now you're stuck in a moment
You can't get out.

CHEERS.

Seven Day Mile

' Occasionally in life there are those moments of unutterable fulfillment which cannot completely explained by those symbol called words. Their meanings can only be articulated in the inaudible language of the heart. '
- Martin Luther King , Jr.

' Just living is not enough. One must have sunshine , freedom , and a little flower '
- Hans Christian Anderson

' Life is not always fair. Sometimes you can get a splinter even sliding down a rainbow '
- Terri Guilemets.

Its not always sunshine.
Its not always clear skies.
Its not always smiles.
Its not what we expect it to be.
Its life.

But we'll always have someone.
To be our sunshine.
To be our white clouds.
To go through the unexpected with you.
There's always someone who gives you a reason to smile.
So , smile... and mean it.

Its a sea ever churning tides

In the sureness of time
And our words will repeat now and forever again
Well this might take awhile to figure out
So don't rush it
And hold your head right through the doubt
' Cause its just a matter of time
You've been running so fast
Its the seven day mile
Has you torn in - between here and running away.

CHEERS.

I Don't Have To , But I Want To.

When everything has taken its toll ,
Would you be my strength ?


Sometimes I wish I was stronger ,
So that I can take on what this world has to give.
Sometimes I wish I was wiser ,
So that I wouldn't feel like my head is about to fall off if i had gotten enough sleep.
Sometimes I wish time would slow down ,
So that I wouldn't feel like I have to live each day as the last.
Sometimes I wish I do not have to want to be strong for you ,
So that I wouldn't have to go beyond myself to make you smile tomorrow.



Push me till I have to fly
I've shed my skin , my scars
Take me deep out past the lights
Where nothing dims these stars , nothing dims these stars.

CHEERS.

One Day

" What you do with your life is just one half of the equation. The other half , the more important half really is , who you're with when you're doing it "
- Post Grad.

Life.
Its not about what we have , its about the people we have.
Its not about how much money we make , but how many lives we've touched.
Its not where we're at , its who we're with.
Its not looking for happiness , its having people to go through sadness with us.
Its not how many people we know , its how many hands we've hold.
Its not what we do , but who we do it for.
Its not how we fall , its how we get up.
Its not how we win , its how we fight.
Its not about having success , its the people who's brought us success
Its not a destination , its a journey.

Often times we chase for the wrong things , look at the wrong place.
So , here's a small reminder of what we're suppose to look for.


I'm hoping you might take just a moment to realise
That everything you're looking for is hidden in plain sight
I know you better than I know myself
How I feel is the only thing I can never tell ya

Maybe oneday you will know
How hard is it for me to show my heart
And all the love running through my soul
Maybe one day you will know.

CHEERS.

Dreamers.

Someone else's thoughts could take root in the loam of your mind ; having someone accept you was as vital as oxygen
- The Pact

I have so much - too much in fact , going on in my life and all I have been doing is waiting for the right time to say it.
But I realise that there isn't going to be a right time to vent out all the anger , frustration - some I didn't know existed until today.

Do you ever wonder what is it going to be today ?
Do ever wonder what is the next thing you're going to read here - not that I expect you to wonder.
I always wonder what's next , for me as the blogger of this blog.
What could I possibly give. I like the mysterious element that sometimes I want you to think about what is going through my head or who I really am. But at the same time , I think if you read long enough, you can possibly tell that I almost gave myself away.
At the same time of keeping it mysterious , or poetic , I'll like to give people something to think about.
After all , you and I as people always , always have opinions.


I always talked about keeping it unknown. - like for me to know , for you to find out.
Today , what I'm about to put on the table is what you get. This is me and honesty.

Last night , my day got from bad to worst to much better.
I snuck into my bed at about 1am and said my prayers really quick (nothing I'm proud of) and doze off , almost instantly.
And I had one of the most intense dream. I wouldn't call it a nightmare nor a sweet dream.
In a dream , not so often that we end up some where we actually know.
So , it was that time of the year , cross country - or road run. whatever you call it.
I was running on a route I have never ran or come across in my life. But I know I was running , my legs felt a little heavy but I managed to get myself to the front. From a crowd to an empty lane.It was a good sign , I think. I knew I was near the finish line but the thing is.. I couldn't find it.I followed the signs and direction , I kept ending up at the same wrong place.
The same wrong place was in a building - I don't know how I ended up there but I suppose it was the school , which I've never been to.
I was surrounded by white walls with doors now. But I kept ending up at the same place , no , not the finish line. I obviously started to panic , not only the fact that I wasn't first anymore, but the fact that I was lost. Anyway , to make this short , I ended up in the school's parking lot. It was evening already, purple-ish sky. Everyone was in the canteen , somehow. And I never made it pass the finish line nor did I find the finish line. Never found my way back.

Okay , maybe this sounds nothing like it. Or feels anything like it.
Another thing about dreams is that we often do not remember them.
We only remember a few. And the few should have or would have hit us , in a way , that we somehow remember them. And this dream I had was one of it. Still so fresh in my mind.
That girl , the one following the right directions , the one with expectations the one who got lost. That girl was me. That girl is me.

You could leave or you could bare with me..
I have so much to say.



I always wondered why I'm so scared to live it up , live my life.
Be who I always wanted. Now I understand why.
I was scared because I was afraid I couldn't. I was afraid if I tried and I kept failing , I wouldn't be able to live up to my expectations. What more my parents. The picture I paint for them of the person I am going to be or I want to be. The person who's suppose to walk in that great pair of shoes. My parents have gave in and gave up so much for me , and they do not do that for nothing. They expect me to get somewhere with what they have given me. The thing is , I always asked for whatever it is until they gave in , but I was never sure if I could get anywhere. I don't want to e treated like a joke or not be taken seriously. I want them to believe that I'm not a joke and I can be somebody. But , I don't know how or whether I can do that.


What do people usually call this ?
The phase. Or ' teenage angst '.
Adults see this as the phase teenagers go through. Everything that happens is exaggerated.
Because they forgot how hard is it going through teenage years. Living up to expectations or arguing about why their opinions doesn't make sense and they can somehow be possibly totally wrong or the fact that they think what's best for us is not best for us.
Maybe , maybe they've forgotten what it feels like.
If they think this is nothing, that's when they're wrong again.



There was a time and place not far from here and now
Maybe a brighter day, maybe they had made it somehow
Living for there and then under a psychadelic spell
No one was listening
Still they had so much to tell

Whatever happened to the dreamers
They always looked beyond the sky
Saw a world they could believe in
But only when they close their eyes

Nothing's ever been this way before
A dream is just a dream and nothing more

CHEERS.